Thursday, June 23, 2011
Scary, fun, adventure...
Provence is a cliche isn't it? People read "A Year in Provence" and get all romantic about it, but you could just as well rent a room in Modesto or something and have the same agrarian atmosphere and simplistic living. Well they wouldn't speak french.
So whats scary, fun, and adventurous? Well he said I can go over too and travel around a bit. He's kinda acting like he wants some private time in a new environment to kinda get his head together, but he said I can stay with him for a week or so and then I'll have a train pass and a credit card and more freedom than I am comfortable with. (Yes he has budget numbers in mind, so it will be hostels and if I'm lucky maybe a couch or two.) But he wants me to kinda do what my mom did when she was my age, and sort of find out what life is like as my self rather than as the part of some support system/planned life/safe home boring way I live.
Am I ready for it? NO WAY! I am scared shitless! I'm freaking out of my mind! But I'm gonna try it. The worst that can happen is I have to call daddy to come rescue me. (Well really I could get raped, murdered and cut into fish bait after being kidnapped and sold into sex slavery!)
But he knows a few people in France who have kids my age, and I can sort of use them for a crutch. And really who wouldn't want some daughter of a friend of your parents who speaks your language like a baby, showing up and wanting to be shown around town?
I want to spend a week in Paris, I already missed the Fête de la Musique :( but I'm hoping to be there for Paris Plage, when they dump sand on the road along the Seine and make it a beach!
I'll be back for school in the fall...maybe. My dad is making noises like he might go to India too...I'm not following him there! But maybe something will happen that makes me see life in a new and better way. Or I grow up some more and come back more confident! And skinnier! Or I just have a cool summer and go back to the normal. Or it could suck and I feel alone and lost and am so happy for Starbucks and the boring life I lead.
Wish me luck and love